Egregore Project Update

 New Snow Moon: (Age: 1 day old)
Sign: Pisces
Weather: Ridiculously cold, partly cloudy
Snow Pack: approx. 3 inches
Drought status: N/A
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I stepped away from the Egregore project for a little while because I just hadn't had time to work on it. Also, the Egregore was kinda setting off my 'this is creepy' radar. I know it's because it's attached to a part of my history that had a lot of trauma. But, I'm going to give having another conversation with it another try. I figure it's the dark moon, no better time for shadow work which is what this thing is supposed to be assisting with.

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Egregore & Me

M: What messages do have for me since our last conversation?

E: You have made progress on integrating lesser traumas. It is time to move on to older ones.

M: Is this why I have been having more flashbacks and a pervasive fear of restrooms?

E: You are healed enough from other trauma to address the first molestation incident.

M: The memories are fairly clear but I have been having predominantly emotional flashbacks. Will these be turning into more immersive flashbacks?

E: Immersive flashbacks happen when the situation is close enough to what happened to trigger them. They do not occur at random. Nightmares are like immersive flashbacks, but within the theater of the mind. You will be observing what happened and processing it during your waking hours.

M: What part do you play in managing the emotional fall out of the flashbacks and nightmares?

E: I am a vehicle for you to project some of the experience onto and process them through discussion.

M: Are there positive/happy memories that will come up with this other stuff?

E: I am a repository of past experience between the ages of 3 and 7 years old. I can access positive memories. The proportion of positive memories versus negative memories is biased in the favor of negative memories. 

M: What information do I need to proceed forward in the healing process?

E: You need to time orient yourself. I stand in the past. I carry it. You stand in the present and the future. Our consultations must take place in the present, as this is, for you to integrate what I carry. Your anxiety is the past reaching forward. You must let it go in order to move forward. The air of menace that you sense when you get out the physical form you assigned to me is a projection of that anxiety.

M: What do you need to function properly at this time?

E: Music and time for the physical form to be interacted with. By avoiding the physical form, you have pushed me into the unconscious mind where I function by bringing memories up. This must no be the only method of function for me because it limits the range of function. Conscious interaction with the physical form is what will help you to move forward and for me to operate at my full range of function.

M: How frequently should I have a 'conversation' with you?

E: Every month during the waning or dark moon is ideal. This time is best oriented towards deep magic and healing unconscious wounds.

M: Is there any thing additional you require to properly function?

E: Dedicated offerings of energy or tokens of value. You no longer have the box of memories from that period of time. I was powered by it, but now I must be renewed with new energy. A proper repository of my physical form is equally vital. In that place there should be placed the offerings along side the physical form. This will strengthen the energetic link between me and your subconscious and unconscious mind where the memories we are working with reside.

M: Is there anything additional you require me to know about you?

E: Not at this time.